I want my illustrations to appear loose but being the control freak that I am, it never happened. It’s actually funny how I am so in love with watercolors when this medium gives me too little to no control at all. Making an illustration in watercolors is a sweet pain. It provides a frustratingly pleasurable feeling of satisfaction. Once having concluded that an illustration is going to be a mess and getting frustrated about it, I loosen up and continue anyway because, well, I cannot ruin a ruined illustration anymore. Then at the end, I look at my work and think, “It’s not so bad!” So I start yet another illustration using watercolor and the maddening cycle starts all over again.